Long Distance
Running 21km last Sunday has not just been exhilarating – 2 hrs 34 mins 16.30 secs (my personal best) – but it has sort of been the analogy of 2009:
The journey is long, and for the most part, the end not in sight.
Coming up to 6 months by this Sunday, pupillage has been nothing short of learning. A glimpse into what legal practice is about. A vision, perhaps, of my long-term future. Is this what I want? And what of the other (sometimes greater) things in life, like ministry and marriage and family? Where do they fall in?
Probably one of the longest years of my life so far, 2009 has already stretched me beyond a limit unmatched throughout my past 24 years. It has been nothing short of challenging – physically, mentally and emotionally. It has caused me to rethink priorities, face deep-seated fears (some of which have yet to be overcome) and question decisions that I have made over the years.
In my first three months, I learnt to trust in the strength of Him who would sustain me physically. In the three months that followed, it turned into a question of whether I could trust in the love of Him who directs my path, both in the near future and in the long term. It’s not merely physical, it’s total.
It’s a question I feel I have not answered in a confident affirmative. Daily, I find myself forgetting the big picture – what is His plan? Where does everything fit in? God, why do I have to run this race?
Hello, in advance, to the last trimester of pupillage. And to a continuing journey of trust.
